[Preface]: Attempting to identify two of my “strengths” as one particular assignment asked me to proved to be more difficult than I initially expected. It brought up more internal discussion regarding what a “strength” is itself than what mine are specifically. Do I consider X to be a strength because it’s a recurring component of my compositional work? Or do I consider X a strength because it’s one of my personal preferences in any choreography, whether mine or not. Am I good at choreographing this one particular element because I do it frequently? Although all these questions acted as interesting deviations away from the original task, I will do my best to put them aside for now and frame the question instead as, “What do I enjoy about the work I create?”
One thing I distinctly appreciate about the material I create is how full-bodied it is. The last time I used LMA to analyze a phrase I had made, the Bartenieff “whole body” connectivity symbol was used more than any other. This was the first time I realized that I almost never have movements that are isolated to just one part of the body. Even if that is the case, generally a sequential body flow is being utilized and the next body part gets incorporated immediately. That being said, it’s hard to discern for me whether that is a quality related to my intended emphasis as a dancer or a choreographer. To truly explore and or answer this, I feel I would need to sever “me” from “my movement” by teaching and coaching my material on other bodies (something I’ve never done.)
The other aspect of my choreography that I find enjoyable would be the effort that I choose to advertise; I appreciate the fact that it doesn’t look easy. Not only do I make no attempts to disguise the “struggle,” it’s often a salient characteristic that I have built-in intentionally. First, generally speaking the goal of ballet is to perform ease and camouflage labor. The aesthetic of concealing the “trying” has grown boring over seventeen years and I am inspired to explore others. Second, I find the exhibition of effort to be more relatable; if life imitates art, art should confirm the notion that life is not executed with ease.
In posting these thoughts and feelings regarding my choreographic voice as it sounds in my sophomore year of college, I give myself the opportunity to later look back on this era with greater accuracy and therefore greater context regarding it’s development over time.